Heart Break Journal – Day Seven | September 6th

Note: If you want weekend service details, click here. If you want info on the Saturday flyer distribution, click here. This post is about our week long Heart Break project, which wraps up today.

7:16 a.m.  –  Carey

So this is it, the final day of Heart Break.  I am so anxious to find out what God has been doing in your life.  Lots of people have read the blog this week, and I would love to hear more stories.  What has God put on your heart?  Where is it breaking?

Here are some near final thoughts as I head into the last hours of my fast (but hopefully not the last hours of my praying….):

  • For me, something shifted last night.  Toni and I had some extended prayer time where we were able to deal with issues that were on our hearts personally and pray deeply for our campuses and into the community.  It was one of those powerful prayer times where you just leave thanking God that He is who He says He is.
  • I feel like there is more God wants to do in me (confession, repentance), and that he will continue to chip away at me in the next few weeks.
  • Of all the things that are breaking my heart this week, four stand out the most:
  • The sheer size of the mission.  162,896 people in Barrie and 37,290 people in Orillia will not be in church this weekend.  Of those, over 69,000 in Barrie are under 24 and 9,000 in Orillia are under 24.  Man, does God long for both their salvation and a day to day walk with our neighbours.
  • The stories those numbers represent.  Many want hope.  All need it.  They just don't know where to find it.  The more we are like Jesus, the more we can help them.
  • Resources that go beyond our needs as a congregation. This has
    come up in more than a few prayer times this week. I did some math as a
    follow up. The people of Connexus will see approximately $70,000,000 in
    personal income this year (that figure is the combined annual incomes
    of people who call Connexus home if we are merely average income
    earners).  We are currently releasing less than 1.4% of that back into
    Kingdom work right now (our operational budget for both campuses
    combined is under $1,000,000).  If that was to double in the next 3
    months, we would go way beyond just being "operational" (our
    congregational "needs" aren't that great) and into extravagance in what
    we could do in the community in terms of reaching families, helping the
    poor and giving back what God has given us.  If that was to rise to the
    level God imagines for us (10% or ‘generosity' – you pick the biblical
    standard), imagine what could happen then.
  • Unity in the body of Christ.  It was a joy to pray for other churches this week.  If we think we can do it all, we're mistaken.  It's going to take every follower of Christ in both cities to turn things around.  We need to live that out to the core of our being. Unity doesn't mean one organization, it means a deep respect and celebration of the diversity we have in the body of Christ, each playing a role (1 Cor. 12).  God has us positioned to play a role (I pray a significant role) in reaching lost people, but he's got many other churches positioned to do their part.  We need to celebrate this.

Praying for favour as we distribute an invite to Connexus and free popcorn to 2000 homes in Barrie and Orillia today (that's 6000 people) (that's something that wasn't in the original budget but we're doing it anyway). You can help us (click here for info).  Pray that this would be a way for everyone who receives an invite to begin a new relationship with their heavenly Father. 

What are you hearing?  What are you feeling as you fasted or as you prayed?  What has God done in your heart?



  1. Nancy MacLachlan says, September 7, 2008 at 2:01 am

    I realized how often I will turn to food to comfort me rather than asking God for his peace, strength or guidance. I was overwhelmed by the vast numbers of people all of whom had concerns, struggles, questions and may be lost at this time in their life. I felt bewildered by the shear numbers and the potential stories attached to each of the names, sometimes two names on one line! As I was praying about the
    people on my pages and for the people, I sensed an urgency to reach out to everyone. I wondered, will they know someone prayed for them today? What will happen? How will this person be guided towards God?
    I think this experience has challenged me in new ways and opened my eyes to the greater communities' needs and how heartbroken God's heart is to be so far away from his children.

  2. Doris Schuster says, September 8, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    This week, as I asked God to speak to me about all the things that break His heart, many things came up. But the one thing He showed me, that actually broke my heart and literally brought tears to my eyes was that there are too many women and children being abused in their homes, right here around us, and that many of these women believe that they have nowhere to go for help and have therefore lost all hope. Teaching them that God loves them and that there is hope is on my heart. I think the church can help too.

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