Day 35 – I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For

Day 35


Luke 24:36-42


Some of you know this already, but I am a huge fan of the band U2.  They have been an incredible influence in my development as a musician.  For my birthday last year my wife Melissa bought me a live DVD of the band at the Rose Bowl during their 360 tour in 2010.

Yesterday I popped it in to pass the time while I was running on the elliptical machine (anything to distract me from the fact that I'm running…ugh)

The band started to play one of my favourite songs “I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For” from their Joshua Tree record.

I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colo urs will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well yes I'm still running

You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Of my shame
You know I believed it

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

What I love about this song is it's beautiful honesty.  This song encompasses both certain faith, yet shows traces of doubt and discontentment.

Bono sings  “you carried the cross of my shame, you know I believe it…But I still haven't found what I'm looking for.”  In other words, You know I believe in you Jesus, but it's still not enough, I still doubt.

In Luke chapter 24 we see Jesus appear to His disciples after he is crucified on the cross.  These men were his closest followers,  in fact they literally gave up their entire lives, left their homes and families to follow their Savior.  Yet, even when Jesus appears in the flesh and they actually touch him, they still doubt him.   In this passage it says that Jesus spoke, showed them his wounded hands and feet, and yet they still stood there in disbelief.

So is it possible to have doubts, but still be a follower of Christ? Absolutely.  Faith is a choice.  Faith means that in the middle of our doubt we choose to believe.


Belong  – Because you can belong before you believe.
Do you resonate with the disciples in this passage?  Maybe you want to believe, but you just have too many doubts.  That's ok.  Tell Jesus about your doubts, be honest with him.  Let's continue on this spiritual journey together, you belong here.

Believe  – Because those who belong often start to believe.
In this passage we see that even followers of Jesus can still have doubts.  Through prayer Jesus invites us to cast our doubts and burdens upon Him.  Continue to ask him to show you the truth in His word.

Become  – Because everyone who believes can become someone new.
Is there someone in your life that does not believe?  How can you encourage them to make steps forward in their faith?

Jesus , thank you for your Word.  Thank you that through your disciples we see it is possible to wrestle through doubt and still have a relationship with you.  Help us to have faith in you and the love you showed us on the cross.  Please take our doubts and give us the peace that only comes from knowing you.  Amen.

– by Andrew Walker


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